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Stories of Seekers

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They say that things show up when you need them most, and meeting Payam and his supreme healing arrived in precisely this way. I had been stuck in a dark loop of grief accompanied by bouts of severe anxiety and panic, and was not responding to traditional talk therapy or other mainstream modalities. Keeping my head above water was a moment-by-moment struggle. I’m not a stranger to alternative therapies, and have found them to be extremely beneficial. However, ceremonies had always taken place within group settings which felt a personal roadblock from allowing my most vulnerable self to emerge. In group ceremony, there always exists the possibility that negative energetics from another participant can affect and detract from your own inner sanctum - I have been in that maloca. A one-on-one session with Payam had the potential to offer more profound excavations, which was what I required for a breakthrough. There is nothing to compare the level of immediate comfort and trust I had with Payam, and his commitment to my healing and wellbeing was evident with every step. Clear, detailed communications were in place during advance preparations, and continued throughout my journey. His obvious reverence and respect for the intelligence of the medicine interwoven with integrity and an innate knowing are hallmarks of a true healer, and Payam has that in spades.There was never a moment where I felt unsafe or unsupported, although my own apprehensions were often tricky to navigate. I have never felt more cared for, seen, and, yes - LOVED - by a professional than during our sessions. He listens and is compassionately direct. He offers cues and guidance - reminders to breathe, to allow, to let go, and to surrender. To go deep. Long-buried truths were safe to reveal themselves along moments of heartfelt liberation and clarity. Payam showed up when I needed him the most; the greatest gift I could have given myself. I am beyond grateful.

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— Heidi R.

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In a landscape littered with boys in costumes, Payam is a man truly dedicated to being an honest practitioner of neo-western psychedelic healing. He is a skillful navigator of the multilayered realms which encompass our current cultural, social, and interpersonal landscape. He uses this skill in full service of his clients. Very human, Payam is aware of the many roles we each play and how they interact with each other. My experience with Payam showed him to be an attuned, sensitive, and benevolent practitioner who strikes an appropriate balance between directing and allowing. During our time together, he saw deeply into who I am and customized his interactions with me in the medicine space based upon what he saw. This ended up being very healing and transformative, increasing my ability to play the true song of my heart with the instrument that is this body.

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— Clack Ickes - President, Psychedelic Club. USA

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I was honored that we spent a transformative & sacred time together! You welcomed me, so that my presence can be supportive to my partner and with open arms you trusted me as an observer & learner of your gift as a Shaman healer blending the powers of plant medicine! It was a special healing time I will always cherish!

As a trained mental health clinician with a commitment to learning and expanding my understanding and clinical practice in Trauma healing, I thank Payam for his wisdom and gift of elevating my heart and mind to the an alternative form of healing our deeper shadows that can not be to reached solely by traditional Western talk therapies! I witnessed Payam’s healing and forever thankful for expanding my knowledge. Everyday I’m still unfolding the layers of expansiveness!!

My deepest gratitude to you!

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— Glenda Danek, LCSW

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Payam has helped me with what no Western practitioner or medical professional was able to - which was uncover and heal the source of my deepest trauma; something that years of therapy alone could not accomplish. I am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to work with him, and experience his passion and love for helping others heal and find their souls again, or perhaps for the very first time. Self-love and acceptance have always been very elusive concepts to me, until Payam showed me how truly beautiful (and possible) they are. I very much look forward to continuing this journey of self-love and self-discovery, and strongly encourage others to take this very important leap towards their own self-healing.

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— Hope M.

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I cannot express enough how eternally grateful I am for Payam and his openness, strength, grace, and love. He puts his heart and soul into his work, and through his compassion and dedication, I was guided through some of the deepest work I have ever encountered in my life.

Payam created a safe space for me to dive into old wounds and trauma, meet my truest self, and learn to heal through mind, body, & soul. His willingness to meet me at every step of the way and help empower the Self that needed to come through has been completely life changing.

Since my work with Payam, I am moving through my life in deep awareness & love, knowledge of my worth, and clarity of my life path. I am forever thankful!

Again- Thank you for your bright light and deep soul.

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— Ceclili A.

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One doesn’t pick a surgeon for his personality, one picks him for their skill. I came to Payam for a chronic pain that had morphed into a sharp stabbing ache from which I could not find any relief. After two meetings he told me it was rooted somatically to my relationship to my alcoholic mother. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. During the earth medicine session, he extracted the somatic energy which I could not rid myself of. I cried when I realized the pain was finally gone and I had finally found freedom.

Payam empowered me to trust my own instincts, so that I could stand in my own power. to see my own strength and to listen to a higher level of energy connected to me and in me. My life shifted when was able to release my trauma, connect to my higher self and become my own inner healer.

Thank you!

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— Britt C.

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In my past, I tried traditional Western approaches to getting help for my past childhood traumas and my psychological pain of years living with depressive symptoms and addictive behaviors. In 1999, I started traditional mental health therapy for several years. Different therapists did not help with the deeper darker emotional issues and the dysfunctional behaviors associated with my depression. In 2004, The Mind Body Institute in Brookline Massachusetts taught me how to recognize the physiological shift within my body, provided tools to begin to address my needs and introduced me to the emotional pain stored in my body. Again, l knew I needed more help, but didn’t know what. In 2014, I was honored to be invited to an ancient healing ceremonial tradition in Peru in which the Shaman used Ayahuasca as their healing tool. My hope was to rid the weight of depression that no other western approaches could help me for over 15 years. During this journey, I received a lot of visions of which I did not know how to interpret, but the images remained with me. This then opened me up to searching for more alternative means to tap into what began in Peru. I then began my healing journey with Payam in 2019. He introduced me to MDMA which was when my true healing began. My recent ceremonial time with Payam was in 2021. I encountered the same physical reaction I first had with Ayahuasca as I did during Payam’s ceremony which included both MDMA and Psilocybin. I felt the medicine traveling in the body, the hot and cold sweats and full body shaking. I didn’t have to sit long with these symptoms because Payam saw what was happening. He asked if he could take my uncomfortable feeling away for me. He had me put my discomfort into a ball while laying on my back. Once I gathered up all the heat, I handed it over to him like an unwanted package. It was immediately gone. I felt no discomfort or anxiety. I had a new feeling of relief and release. After years of reflecting to the 2 vastly different healing ceremonies, I concluded that my time with Ayahuasca was a solo journey in which I was trying to navigate both my physiological feelings while trying to make sense of so many images and emotional feelings. In contrast, Payam’s ceremonial guidance during both ceremonial medicines, I was accompanied through it all so that any new thoughts and feelings were met with compassion and understanding. While on Ayahuasca I quickly learned that my mind and body were free to manifest and see what I wasn’t able on my own. I had this same depth of awareness during my MDMA experience. I set a specific intention and asked a specific question. Distractions (thoughts/surface shit) appeared throughout to deflect me during my journey. I was able to decipher the importance of that vision or feeling. Then I moved the distracting thoughts along or dive deeper with it. I found while taking MDMA that i had more ability to go really deep with my visions and thoughts that I believe were too threatening at other points in my life. One of my visions while on Ayahuasca was a woman on a bed, but I did’t know why. At that time, I remember asking to show me and tell me what I need to understand these images with love and compassion. I was gifted these images yet the depth of understanding didn’t arrive until years after my Ayahuasca journey. It wasn’t until I sat with MDMA that those images became clearer. That image of the woman was my abuser. Prior to 2014, I had no awareness I was sexually assaulted. Yet, if you asked me at 2016 I’d still say no, but I would think of my babysitter, but not know the reason. For decades, I carried a lot of pain and anger. Particularly, when it came to my partners and specifically if I experienced feelings of rejection and denial. I never understood why I would act like that until now. When on Ayahuasca I was only OBSERVING while on MDMA I was observing, experiencing and regressing to my traumatized self while releasing all at once. What took 20 years of seeking relief from my trauma and suffering, it took Payam 2 ceremonies to give me the peace and clarify I have now.

I’m eternally grateful to Payam.

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I am a Licensed Certified Social Work Therapist and recently had the pleasure of working with Payam in alliance for a mutual client of ours who is working through severe childhood trauma.

I found Payam to be very skilled in helping my client expel a great deal of anger and pain with deep loving concern through his expertise with Plant and Earth Medicines as well as the IFS Therapeutic Model.

Payam and I met through virtual telehealth, for the duration of our client’s treatments, and maintained close and open communication. He expressed a very caring concern as to how my treatment went with our client after his own specialized work with this client had concluded.

Since then I have continued my own work, which has enabled my client to finally express catharsis and move much further past the trauma that has challenged them for a substantial part of their life. I am happy to recommend Payam with complete faith in his abilities and trust in a very respectful and helpful alliance with clinicians who work with traumatized clients.

— Lucy Barish, LCSW

Working with Payam has had an immense impact on my life. I have experienced a profound transformation on the levels of consciousness, emotion, heart, body, mind, and spirit. Payam opened his heart and mind to me, and fully dedicated himself to my healing process.

He helped me find the tools to face both the dark and the light aspects within myself, and I have learned how to love myself and all of existence. I have found the power that was always within myself.

Payam’s ability to help me was deep, intuitive, compassionate, empathetic, and patient. He has shown me how to open up to truth. His love and concern for the total well being of all who work with him is incredible. I’m so grateful for the new and beautiful path that this work has brought forth.

— Eli G.

Awareness and interest in finding ways to heal and grow has created a boom in the number of practitioners and therapy offerings out there. They are not all the same. As someone who has experienced a number of different therapies and transformational modalities I am grateful that my path has found its way to Payam.

Payam is someone who is as clear on his unique capabilities as he is a lifelong student of healing. He does not posture himself as a healer so much as he reaches to be a facilitator and conduit of healing that is already within you, that you yourself are the medicine that you need. This is not to say Payam doesn’t know his material. He absolutely does, and he is constantly learning through new coursework and experiences. What distinguishes Payam is his humility and a light, confluent touch that allows him to be open and integrative with what he knows rather than dogmatic or attached to any particular ‘way’. I have witnessed this dynamism on several occasions and have been amazed by his ingenuity and efficacy, but not as amazed as those it has served. This dynamism also extends into how Payam meets and interacts with who he works with; sometimes it is time for clarity, sometimes it is time to laugh, sometimes to exhale, sometimes another reaching. To me, this selfless dynamism is a testament to his commitment to healing.

This dynamism and non-attachment allows Payam to meet you where you are. This is essential given all the different ways we find our way towards doing the work we need to do on ourselves, to say nothing of what we think we are ready for, or not. I have been especially grateful that Payam has come from a worldview and lifepath similar to my own; one where my own idea of the legitimacy of my own value was based on external achievement and validation. His memory and journey from his own past made it easier for me to see how a new path of my own was not only possible, but exactly where I could head myself in a way of my own.

Payam is the real deal. If you are ready to move forward with your own journey and healing, I would recommend you reach out and schedule a conversation.

— Charles P.

It took me a long time to get up to writing about this. Thank you Payam for helping me get there and back.

The work that Payam performed on me was Deliverance. Thorough a very effective combination of suggestion, acupressure and Thai massage, he located incredible tightness in my back, heart, and throat, and with my participation, we worked them out. Time after time, he 'pulsed' the darkness from deep within me; “out, out, out.” "Not yours, not yours, not yours!" he repeated, as my whole body lifted from the floor -arched in a combination fish/full-wheel pose (back arched, crown of head and feet on the floor)- expelling bile from my mouth. Round after cathartic round, until there was no more. I was reset; empty and open.

What followed was the heaviest ceremony of my life. Empty and open, I took-on all of the pain in the circle, and then that of the world. It poured in. I saw that I could free the world from darkness if I simply ended the dream that is my life. Fortunately, I was surrounded by Payam and other brothers, who looked after me, chanted songs into my ears, and cradled me back from the depths of blackness into the light of a new day.

What I have today is first-hand perspective and understanding of duality; there will always be darkness for without it there is no light.

— Johnny S.

First of all, I thank the Universe for allowing me to cross paths with Payam.

I came to Payam as someone who had already started down the path of doing inner-work in conjunction with earth medicines and opening my consciousness and awareness. Payam helped me take this to the next level and focus in on my pain, learn to sit with it, and accept the experience of it in a loving way.

I've continued to attend the various workshops Payam set up and each session built upon the previous experience in a profound manner conducive to my healing. I've connected with so many people in Payam's community over the past year, all united in their individual journeys towards inner healing and growing awareness. It has been a source of strength and resolve to continue on this path. It has been a beautiful ongoing journey and I've been learning to love and forgive myself and this has been increasing my happiness on a daily basis. I deserved this and the world deserves the best version of me I can be.

Payam has been an instrumental part of my personal process. I consider him to be a healer, mentor, and friend. He's helped me heal, live more in my heart and get out of my head, become aware of my patterns, and simply be there for me. If you are serious about doing inner work and feel stuck in your progression and conventional means have not helped you, I'd advise you to speak with Payam, educate yourself about what he does, and follow your intuition. May the universe inform you it's time to step into your power. Payam can help you with that.

— JT Lee

I am a 71-year-old mother, grandmother and wife, amongst other relationships.

I have never been one to take drugs in the years that were so popular. Although I was part of the Hippie generation, I was very traditional. I married during college and just celebrated my 50th wedding anniversary.

My husband and I met Payam through our son who felt that Payam had a unique ability to help people struggling in their emotional lives.

Our journey started because my husband has been severely depressed for years and we were hoping to find something that would help him figure out what he could do to have a better quality of life, to find some joy! He has been on antidepressants (didn’t help much) for years.

Before working with Payam, he weaned himself off and is still not using them today.

He has seen numerous psychiatrists and therapists but he never really gets deep enough to discover the source of his angst. We have absolutely no problems financially, he is very healthy and has a wonderful support system, so the world should be something that he can fully enjoy, but something is preventing him from living his life as he would like to.

I did not expect to enter into this therapy realm with my husband but our son suggested that I do so, so that any experiences my husband had would be more understood by me, going through the same process.

I did not realize that I was also carrying deep pain from childhood experiences, nothing tragic but it nevertheless, has affected me through my life. I actually look forward to my sessions because I feel that I am finding my true self. I am seeing things that I buried deep and feel a release and an understanding of how I have reacted my whole life. I understand and am working to undo unhealthy ways that I react and am more in touch with my ability to accept and forgive myself for not being as perfect and empathetic as I would like to be. Through this work I can say I have felt the presence of the Divine, which I have never sensed before in my life.

Payam does offer some non-traditional therapy, but we have so much trust in him. Therapy that might have sounded scary has turned out to bring more joy. For me, it’s been a godsend. My husband is still struggling to find his way but Payam has given him hope. I don’t believe that my husband has ever felt as safe as he is with Payam… To look deep and try to find whatever it is that is holding back his joy.

Payam is an incredible healer. He feels what his Seekers are feeling and he takes on more than anyone should be expected to. He deals with some very difficult cases and he is all in with them, I know it can’t be easy. He is a true healer.

He is so full of love for people and gives his all, helping those who do not know how to help themselves. He is a gift to all who cross his path and take this journey with him.